I guess I'm finally gonna open up. I'm dating B now. :) I guess you could safely say J is out of my life. I couldn't possibly hold onto a guy who will not like me back right? I had once been treated as a substitute for another girl, the feeling was well, unbearable. I swore I would never let myself through that crap again. And I never did. Not this time, at least. Giving up was the best decision I made so far. Don't mistaken this step as a fickle decision because I seriously did think through for many sleepless nights. When I gave up, I admit I was torn. I admit I did cry. And I admit, I felt lonely. But then again, what's life if I don't go through shit? So when I finally decided to open up to boys again, it only struck me that I should go for someone who likes me, and I like him too, right? J said something that hurt me bad, he told me no need to commit since no guys were after me. Wtf was that supposed to mean right? Obviously it made me feel horrible. But that doesn't mean that I confided in B just cuz I was heartbroken. Like I said, I already figured things out, to me at least. And that's all that matters, right? It's my life, my choice. Though I really have got to admit, I fall in love easily, I just hope this time, it'll be real. I seriously don't believe in forevers. But as long as the times together are enjoyable and unforgettable, that's really all that matters to me. Me and B have been unseparable since Tuesday. This past week, I really got to know him as a person and realised that I indeed, really like him. :) Everyone has a past right? Everyone including myself, so since my past was a bad one, I don't expect B to have a better past than mine cause honestly, what rights do I have? I don't know how well you rate B's reputation but I'm sure you all know that I'm not very well-liked in school too. From the bottom of my heart, I don't give a fuck. I really don't. People can either love or hate me for who I am. If you're a hater reading this, know that I respect you for who you are. Even for how you judge me cause everyone is entitled to their own opinions so seriously, think whatever you want about me. Not like I can do anything to make myself likeable. :) Believe in rumors if you must, if you want to make things seem like I'm a slut or a bitch. If that makes you happy, why not right? :)
This is Hazel Lee for you. <3